Our Divinity and Our Humanity: Alchemizing the Human Experience

Hello Hello my friends! 

How is your summer going?

Too fast or not fast enough?  Hard to tell about time these days, isn't it?

Lots is changing all around us as the systems we have built are being tested.

CHECKING IN

All SORTS of wild stuff is in the news these days and we barely have time to talk about it all, it happens so quickly.  I feel a separation from things as they have been for a long time in my life, maybe you do too?

Personally, I have been in a big moment of transformation and change - and it's involved a lot of alone time and hermiting - one of my favorite things to do - but also, I miss people, and realize how hard it is to try to connect with others right now as we are ALL contending with so much in our worlds.

Spiritually, I think this is a lot like a 'cleanse' for us, and that we're all facing a lot of things we thought we already "dealt with" - like we can finish self improvement or something.  Jokes on us!  Earth School remains in session.

EMOTIONAL RELEASING

So I am finding some OLD emotional stuff resurfacing this week, and seemingly out of the blue, and I am just assuming that this is part of the process, that these emotions have done their job, and are now saying goodbye as they depart.

And when they depart, I thank them for what I have learned. And I wonder, how much else can I learn?

And then I find out the universe understands sarcasm and will indeed raise the ante to challenge us.

So in spite of all that I have done, all the progress I have made, all of the accomplishments of the last decade that I am so very proud of: today? Today I woke up feeling really vulnerable and sad.

I saw something beautiful online - a supporting loving family encounter the likes of which I have never personally experienced: the abundance of verbal blessings and love and an outpouring of expression that is part of a culture nothing like mine.  And I was in awe of the love I could witness in the scene.

Here's a link if you wanna check it out.

Frankly, I was a little busted up we don't normalize this more in my world.  Celebration of our love for each other - not just partners and marriage - that is witnessed and gifted to the community is such a blessing.

Regular everyday down-in-the-trenches

"I love you so much it hurts and I will do anything to let you know how much I love you and I will shout it to you aloud and to the heavens and for the world to see:

I LOVE YOU.  I AM PROUD OF YOU.  YOU ARE MY GREATEST BLESSING. 
THANK GODDESS FOR YOU.  THIS BELOVED TREASURE IS MINE AND I AM SO GRATEFUL."

It cracked my heart open, as it did the woman who was the treasured recipient of this ritual.
She dropped to the ground and wept tears of joy and overwhelm at what she was experiencing. Crawling on her knees back to her mother, scarf after scarf laid out before her - until she was finally in her mother's arms, held, safely, treasured, celebrated, wholly.

I have literally never seen anything like it.

And y'all.   It brought up all my stuffs.

Out of the blue, because of a Nigerian woman graduating (from med school?  get it girl)!

But really.  I'm crying?

WITNESSING WHAT WE DESIRE CAN TAKE COURAGE

Yeah.  That's what disconnection can do to us - feeling separate from our divinity and our own wholeness.  I had to get back to some basics today in my rituals and add a little extra love to the agenda because feelings.  Nothing more than feeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeelings.

Feelings that I honor, and receive.

Even when they surprise me.

I am pretty far along on my healing path, and so I was surprised by this burst of emotion that appeared today to be recognized, heard, seen, honored, and tended..

I have done a lot of healing - but guess what?

There's still room for improvement?  OH BOY!  WHOOHOOO!  LOL.

I keep telling myself it's worth the effort, especially if it means that next time I'll have an even better experience because of all the learning I have done.

Bring it, Earth School!  I am here to learn!

DEARLY BELOVED

So this is my love letter to you, Beloved, especially if you are in a moment where something is cracking your heart open.  Keep yourself safe and tended, and allow this to happen - allow this to be felt, experienced, and allow it to teach you.  Like I am learning.

There's a lot happening all around us, to us, through us, and within us.

AN RX AND AN INVITATION

If you're feeling extra vulnerable these days, take it easy - we really do need to treasure these bodies we have been gifted this time around.

We need to learn how to treasure all kinds of things, now that I think about it.

Especially each other, the process, and the learning, the growing and the creating.

The creating is the part we should get to - it's the fun part, where we share our gifts with the world because we are the only ones who can do it.  I think we have made a lot of this hard on ourselves because we learned hard things, and I also think we can learn things an easier and more sustainable way.

In fact, I think we are here to usher that in together, this new sustainable way.

(Wait till you hear what I think about AI!)

lol.

I hope you are well, my friend.

I hope you are tended, rested, and feeling cherished.  Especially by yourself.

It is worth it to make this experience a gift for ourselves and each other.

Here's to our humanity, grace, and ability to create our experiences, eh?

xoxo,

Jax