Mercury Rx, New Moon in Leo: the Drama Queen

by Jackie Davies

Venus squared Mars yesterday
(Jackie - WHAT?)

You didn't notice?

::staring in South Park::

Very dramatic, indeed.  A resurgence of an old storyline in a new way, an old language on an old stereotype, a new face on the old villain - and the circle continues.

But sometimes, I really do feel like we're living in a comic strip.

Astrology makes me laugh

That's the main reason I pay any attention to it - I like the idea of having a "container" to understand the world.  I really love spotting patterns, and I super love when patterns show up and are consistent and surprising at the same time.  Cycles repeat.  That can be a blessing and a curse.

It's all about where you stand.

Finding Safety in Now

The world is really freaking out in a lot of ways right now; fear, panic, general angst.  It's seeping out of folks who are in overload right now.  If you are okay?   Congratulations.

You officially have superpowers.

If you are not feeling safe?  I am sorry, my friend.  I know the instability can be scary; can you find a way to stabilize yourself a bit more right now?  Just be a bit more comfortable? More tended? More loved?  A moment to rest in the beauty of summer - even for 2 minutes?

Listening to birds will be a gift to your nervous system.  The birds are part of natures meditation apps.  Deep breaths.  Whatever this is - it will pass.  

Is there a gift in this for you?  Have you been looking to find it?  Will it help if you seek it to help you find it?  Almost certainly, right?

The consistency of change

I worked in law for a long time, and part of what I had to learn was getting comfortable with not finishing my work - a legal docket is perpetual (if your business is successful) and ongoing.  Before my law career, I was used to completing tasks and moving on. I completed assignments and was reviewed for them, given  feedback, and a feeling of accomplishment that came from knowing that something was completed.  Check.  Grade.  Off the list.  Yay.  

Until I began working in Intellectual Property, and every day I had a longer list than the day before.  I was always working on 2704932 projects at once, and "finished" wasn't a real thing anymore, only "deadline" was.  A word I still struggle to replace with "due date" because of the violent history - but it is so ingrained in me from those years of perpetual due dates.  Phew.

When I first began?  It STRESSED ME ALL THE WAY OUT.

I woke up in the middle of the night, having nightmares about the job, what I forgot, what I needed to do, and how I needed to do it (and not do it - my lord, a mistake in IP is a chaos maker).  

Turns out, what I was experiencing was actually a historically tried and true process of how to make a good I.P. professional.   CONSTANT VIGILANCE! 

Stress each one out with responsibility until they are woken up in the middle of the night by terror that made a mistake that was un-fixable. Those who survive and go on laugh and bond over it later at lunches and conferences.  "What was your moment?"  We laugh, oh, it was amazing, we say!  A paperclip. A copy job. A check left on the countertop. - only 2 copies, not 3 as we needed, was the original IN there?  OH MY GOD.  Har har har.  So funny.  Right?  

But it's trauma, based in fear, and we all share it. 

Now we as a society are facing inconsistency

It's structural, and if you haven't trained your nervous system to handle that midnight wake up call freaking the firk out over something, then you may be waking up right now in the middle of the night freaking the firk out.

Boo.  That's no way to live.

And also, but?

You can learn how to detach from this state, experience, and pattern - that's what I really want you to know.  I stepped out of that cycle, and I invite you to do the same.

Chaos cannot stay the same kind of chaos.

Even the chaos of chaos involves more change.

So whatcha gonna do?

Are you gonna just stay in fear and try to hide?  Some of us will, and I understand.  Seriously: do what YOU need to do my friend.  The last thing we all need right now is more judgement about how we're handling all of this.

I personally feel like that will take more energy from me, so I am trying a different approach.

I am trying to surf the energy.  Things are in a state of change, movement, flux, and though it's scary to conceive of it as an earthquake - it's exhilarating to consider as a surfer on an amazing wave doing the best thing ever with ease because it was simply TIME.

However you decide to act, or not act, I hope it is exactly right for you.

Everyone is going to play a part in the upcoming changes, and we all have different gifts to share.  You can do this exactly the way you want to right now - and honestly?  Why not?  What better time to just go, what the hell - I want to try it my way this time?

We won't all take the same path, but we have options.  What direction do you want to go?

Fear is just unintegrated excitement

Fear, anxiety, excitement, anticipation - they are fine lines away in our bodies, but they have really different meanings in our mind.  Anxiety and anticipation can feel very similar sometimes - it's a burst of energy and you want to do something about it.

We have to remind ourselves what's really going on:
Yo. Calm down. This is good excitement.

But we felt the anxiety so much more often, we think that's who's back, and we just go into a pattern.  Oops.  

So sometimes, we have to practice getting better at joy.

I think it sounds like a delightful assignment.

I hope you can try it.

And I hope things are the right kind of dramatic in your world right now.

Reminder to join me on Sunday in the Cosmic Energy Circle.

The world needs more love, so we are going to be loving.

xo,

Jax